Is bad karma catching up?

I was always a pensive child. Even though till the age of 14 I lived a fairly comfortable life with no, absolutely no problems creeping in. But the melancholy was always there.

Mom used to fear my predictions that I made..she called me a black tongue so I tried never to give vent to my forebodings. My forebodings about myself are all coming true…Mom says, I think negative hence I attract negativity & that one’s darkest fears always come true. That I shouldn’t even think about such things. But I feel it’s the other way round. I may be an old soul or I may have experienced this lifetime earlier…so maybe I already know the dreary things that are in store & probably that could be a reason why I’ve inherently always been pensive.


I am trying my best to expiate my bad karma that I must have gathered in numerous past lifetimes. For incase I am born again in this lifetime, it could only mean that im being given a second chance to mitigate the wrongs committed earlier.
I have done no wrong this lifetime atleast, as far as I know so am I entitled to an easy life in my next lifetime, for I am very tired of struggling so much, neither do I want to be born on the 8th again.

When I look at those who moved ahead in life without working hard, by sheer dint of their good luck or when I see those who are enviable positions they least deserve, I feel that’s got to do with the good karma they picked up in their previous lifetimes.
But isn’t it a vicious circle? Almost all those whom I see enjoying an easy life…have a higher proclivity than us, strugglers to indulge in vices, corruption, hurting ppl….So here I am, in this lifetime suffering like hell for no fault of mine to pay the penance for my previous lifetime…which in turn teaches me lessons in humility & virtues…these in turn hold me in good stead in my next lifetime & I end up living the life that I envied…opening up possibilities of being unethical etc. For don’t they say, absolute power corrupts…


So I end up living alternate lifetimes of ecstasy & enormous pain, with no scope for Nirvana?
More conundrums- Buddhism provides attaining Nirvana as a solution to break away from the vicious circle of life & death & yet it does not believe in the concept of Soul but blvs in reincarnations.

Then there are Muslim friends who do not believe in the concept of numerous lifetimes. How do they explain-what makes a child to be born in anil ambani’s house & inherit all the luxuries? What makes a child to be born in a Dharavi slum? If its not past karma, then what is? How to explain the continuous run of bad luck in a person’s life whose worked very hard?And how to explain the sheer luck that catapults people from nowhere to places they’d never dreamt in their wildest dreams(I am talking of those who have not worked hard & got a full platter)