Would it sound weird if I say I drew inspiration from the toe that thrust itself out of the misty grey torn socks & proudly proclaimed its freedom from the shackles that subjugated the other fingers & kept them in captivity..... that it fired in me a burning feeling of breaking away from the self imposed restrictions that had turned me into a caged animal pacing up and down, trapped within the claustrophobic four walls.
That now, I don’t wait for Him to visit me in this city, that I buy Blood red corduroy jeans & don’t bother anymore what He thinks( and no, the color isn’t as scandalous as it sounds, it’s quite a pretty shade of maroon).
That I’ve got rid of the colors blue & white from my Life and introduced new colors that define the New me. That I am no more exclusive coz I’ve razed down the wall that made me appear an Ice maiden, that made me appear unattainable. That I don’t bother to carve out neat triangles out of my Mushroom topped Pizza with a fork & a knife coz I don’t want to please anyone anymore. That I am thinking of taking a new phone number to add new acquaintances & delete old ones. That I no longer call up those who expect I shall always be the first one to call & make up for old fights.
That I want to shed my old skin for a new one, like the snakes do but will someone tell me if old memories can be traded for new ones too?Or do snakes still live with their old memories even if they don a new suit...
21 comments:
are you really asking...or just wondering???
you got an interesting invitation...'adult sex shopping'...ha ha..i must say your blog has gotten reallly popular..;)
Kunal->Grrrrr...feel like hitting u with the heavy book i hav been carryin' the whole day,it made my blood boil to see such ads spring up on my blog.And worse still,i hav someone pulling my leg for it.Wait till i get my chance;-)
Thank God,we have something called a Delete button.
BTW,i am actually asking everyone around,if they have an answer to my question.
Anshuman->Wonder why u left behind traces after having promised to stay away...
hey thats unfair....makes my comment look totally out of context...did i tell you that your page sometimes gets pop-ups...the last one was 'adult friend finder'...
ahem...what book is it though? and how heavy...
Kunal->Ah!so he expects me to let those 'immoral' ads add value to my creativity.
My page gets 'such' pop ups...aargh!
'U'll be happy to know,the book is indeed quite heavy & to add to it,it has a hard bound cover that says-Immunology by Kuby'.I can offer u a quick fix balm though,want it?
BTW,check out my reply to u on the post...'Lonely Tear'
in the honour of the snake theory!!
"....new findings suggest that when it comes to learning and cognition, the humble snake may be quite a bit more like wanderin strangers......and that, older and younger snakes differ in how they gather and decipher information about the world around 'em........these snakes appear to have a very strong aversion to the bright lights and open spaces found in the arena. when a snake is first placed in the arena, it tends to circle around the edge, looking for a way out....but....simply stumbling into a hole isn't the only proof that the snakes are learning something.....early attempts to study snake navigation were awry because the studies used mazes as testing arenas -- as though snakes might be expected to run through mazes in the same way rats run ....but strangely enough...they don't!....for they believe...which also almost makes sense...that they're what they call definition of UNclinced n' the being!...for they always flick their tongues out n' not lick their lips...when they do shed their skin...but uncertainity still strives in it's highest intensity...when actually snakes come to bitin their own lips....for vagueness dwells as to is it the intoxication of it's own poison that it goes for....or is it the intoxication of those innocents...who falls a victim even without an official bite!"
he walks and talks with an invincible air of confidence and fearlessness. And all this was real....until....
he saw a snake...
or saw a picture of a snake...
or heard about a snake....
or even had a thought about a snake.
The way you live changes,but memories remain,
the way you look might change,but the way you feel remains the same...
live for the moment,time lost doesn come back again,
look to win always..for life is a game..
Thats a positive change for sure.
:)
beieve me! it is pretty hard to move on at a strech. There are so many false positives; u think u have finally left it all behind, but it naggingly pops up sometime later. Take time, dont force yourself, dont set a timeframe. Forget it and it will happen. That's the way i've finally settled for.
About backpacking, wonderful idea and what better place that Rajastan. Go!!!
btw, u can permanently delete those deleted comments that still show up by deleting it again.
courtesy grafxgurl ;-)
lemme know..if u get the answers..thanks in advance :)
Wet engineer->Boy!u do manage to dig out interesting tidbits.Liked the part which says they always flick their tongues out n' not lick their lips...when they do shed their skin...
Akx->In da game of life,it is a good idea to have a few early losses to relieve the pressure of trying to maintain an undefeated season...
Invincible->I've been battling with myself for long,letz see how things shape up or wud i revert back to my old ways..i dunno.
Rahul->Guess,i got the push i needed to pack my knapsack & move on to unknown terrains that can refresh my mind.
BTW,thanx for the useful tip abt. deleting the deleted comments
Sen->I don't think there is a time frame for such things...it might take years,it might take a whole lifetime...some scars can never be mitigated.
BTW,Definitely,wanna listen...thanks a lot buddy.
Kaps->Dunno if anyone can ever answer that...
scars are souveniers we never lose
the past is never far
did you lose yourself somewhere out there
did you get to be a star
and dont it make you sad to know that life
is more than who we are?
goo goo dolls - name
memories die hard....best is moving on in life...and memories do keep coming back...but then try to shrug dem off as soon as they begin to arrive back....
And as i had earlier in one comments mentioned "And Memries remains.." .... they are always stuck in one corner of the brain....to avoid their coming back....you shud identify what trigers them to come back...and slowly remove all those triggers from ur life if poss.....still some things remain....
Its a difficult hard task in getting rid of memories....but atleast its possible dat they r not revived....
Hey wenever u shift ur blog....mail me back at gauravgupta007@gmail.com
lovely. reading something soobviously personal (close) to you is lovely.
All the best, for the new skin. the new life. the new world. And cling on to those memories, time will leave some of them tinted with disconnect, some with warmth.
(god I sound wanky)
which link were you talking about? the first one in my post? a similar link is provided here.
sorry. dont have to time to read your post today.
later
say..what was that balm again?
The new suits are designed for a bright future. But that brightness can only be felt in contrast with the darkness of the past. As long as you keep the memories, you can dream. If you don't, you can only wonder what lies ahead.
If the past itself has been bright enough, you'd never feel the need to have a new suit. So no dreams, no questions.
The past is as important as the need to have a future. Else, everything is static and pointless.
-- Akshaya
Nish->Nice lines
Gaurav->I agree
Vague->Thanx for da support buddy.
Vikas->Got ur link finally..phew!
Kunal->*she looks all around her*...er,balm...what balm?!btw,check out my reply at 'blood thicker than water'& 'Lonely tear' as well.Itz difficult to keep track of our conversation...that happens in bits & parts..& worse still,on different locations.
Braveheart->Welcome...liked ur views
yes...and im bored of it..at least for now..of everything...your life seems happening!!
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